Process of getting my life back together. I create my own opportunities. If I put myself out there opportunities will come, but I wasn’t ready for that….now I am, I think I am….but I got to be comfortable in my own skin before I can put myself out there again. I’m taking smaller steps, like redecorating my room so that I feel comfortable bring ppl in, organizing my closet, cleaning and etc. I’m focusing on the smaller steps, I’m focusing on the details to bring out the big picture. :) I’m having good feelings about this.
I cheated. I ate pita chips. I ate a lot of pita chips and then I ate soup. :( I failed.
I feel disgusted. I feel like I’m back where I started. I feel like a loser. f*ck
Omg it’s day 7 already. Still feel pretty good, no headaches or lightheaded. My skin is clearing up so tat’s a good sign and I noticed that I lost weight. I don’t have a scale so blahhh no idea how much weight I lost, but losing weight is not my purpose for doing this (although it is a great bonus). Anyways, today I’ve been having bad cravings and thoughts about quitting. I felt like I did this for 7 days already, tat’s seem like enough time……but well no I can’t think that way. I need to finish this. I need to complete this. I don’t want to be known as the loser. I want to be a winner. I don’t want to be know as a quitter. I want people to be talking about me beasting this thing not quitting it. But yeah, I’ve been craving bread. Bagel, Pita Bread, Donut, Dinner Roll, Warm Soft Salty Bread, Corn Bread, Bread Sticks, Garlic Bread, Cheesy Bread Sticks, Biscuit…….BREADDDDD and friesssssss, potato wedges, baked potato, sweet potato friessssssssssssssssss. Everything Carbs!!!